What I Make of December: My Very Own Little Christ…Thanksgiv..Well, Post.

If you’ve been around for a while, you already know it. If you are new, let me tell you Christmas time is not very welcome around here. Forced gatherings, fake smiles, compulsory gifts. I don’t care for any of it. Don’t talk to me about the Christmas spirit, I haven’t seen it in years! Plus, I don’t have a chimney. This totally ruins the thing.

This is why I have decided to make my own December thing. I want random posts on this blog to bring joy, smiles, laughs (one can wish!), and as I am the queen around here, no one can stop me *evil laugh*

I don’t know if I’ll post much, but when I think back on the year I’ve had, there are things I want to say. Let’s hear some of them!

My Very Own Goosebumps Monsters and How I Kick Them!

It’s been a while since my last personal post. I have a video planned about how my life has been completely overtaken by my studies, but I wanted to give you an update about life in general.

Some days are harder than others. We all experience this. But it is much easier when you have your goal on sight. I do. I stick to it like mold on a cheese. But. There’s always a but! My health has been giving me hell, jeopardizing my work at university, leading to more health issues coming back.

 

Dare I say the word?

Yes, anxiety is back. At times.

We all get stressed, anxious even at times. I thought I had gotten over this fact and accepted it but it seems I still have issues with it. My luck is I know the names of the monsters under my bed.

• Lack of self-confidence
• Fear of Failure
• Fear to Disappoint others
• Feeling of inferiority

I fight those monsters with positive thoughts, I watch Buffy, I read (a little). Sadly, I don’t blog as much as I wish I could. But I know I’m not the only one fighting, and I know I am not alone in my own fight.

This is a thank you post. Thank you to every blogger friend who publishes and makes me smile without knowing it, thank you for every sweet message on Facebook, thank you for GIF conversations, thank you for your passionate posts which remind me how much I love blogging.

Thank you to my closest online friends for everything they do. I can’t write a list, otherwise this post will be three miles long. Yep, I’m that lucky!

Three exceptions for three kickass women who never let me down in both personal and professional sides of my life.
Thank you Karen, for believing in me when I don’t.
Thank you Kim for listening to my ramblings and being the fabulous inspiration that you are.
Thank you Noelle for always, always fighting by my side.

I might not be active these days but knowing everyone is around is a relief. Like an open door to my secret happy place.

Now let’s talk offline life.

Thank you to the few teachers who understand my anxiety (believe me, I can count them with three fingers!!!), who see how much energy studying takes out of me on top of this damn commute time, and allow me to ask questions and take more of their time. Thank you for caring. You are what being a teacher truly means.

Thank you to my fellow masochists… No sorry, students. We are united, we will live! I never thought I would find such amazing open-minded, understanding, fun, and genuinely kind bunch to share this hell with.
I’m sorry for the tears before or after some exams and for annoying you with my self-deprecation.

Thank you Maelig for the thumbs-ups, Lilou for the kindest messages, Samuel for being Jesus, Vincent for being naughty… I could go on for another 26 names. Some things are better left unsaid or unwritten! 😉

At the end of the day, all I remember are the jokes and the laughs. Oh Baby!

Thank you to the friends I’ve made. You guys are as crazy as I am, and this is one of the most amazing feeling in the world. You are unique, you are mad, you are just what I need. And you’ll never read this!

Thank you, Mom.

I get up every morning with an aching body telling me I am doing too much. I fight every single day to get to class, to get to work (my favorite!) knowing that each and everyone of you is a weapon I can use against my monsters. I won’t let anything get in the way, but my will is not enough sometimes. If blogging and being sick have taught me anything, it’s that you need people to rely on.

This is a “It’s hard but it’s worth it” post because we need them once in a while. This is me not complaining but acknowledging how lucky I am! This is me being totally hormonal and wanting to hug all of you.

Chocolaten’n’waffles will be back with less serious? More bookish posts soon!