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Blog Therapy n°1: First Setback (mental health post)

What do you do when your next appointment with the doctor is 17 days from now?

You talk. More precisely, you talk to yourself. Then you think it is not enough. In order to benefit from its calming powers, this kind of ramblings must be shared. So, you talk to yourself through your blog. Isn’t what a blog is for? I have started to see Chocolate’n’Waffles as my private therapist. FREE therapist, something that you can’t find in real life these days! It calms me down when I’m restless, it keeps me busy when my mind is clouded with the wrong thoughts, it is the best escape door. And it is a good tool to let your emotions go and bother people with them, haha! This is a post you can skip if you don’t want to read about anxiety today, as I doubt I’ll be talking about books, unless it is to say I threw one at someone!

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Last night, for the first time since I started my therapy, I had a breakdown. It came as a shock. I had been making progress, big and small, I had started to talk more openly about it, I was beginning to make plans again (a publishing degree, moving closer to Bordeaux, going back to yoga…) I thought I was on the right track. After all, hadn’t I succeeded in going into Sephora to get my eyebrows done, a painful and long experience! And spent an hour half-naked in a lingerie boutique in the same mall to reward myself with a push-up bra? I know I owe those changes to the 20 minutes talks I get every two weeks with my doctor and, most importantly, to my new best friend, Valium. Still, I was doing better, I was feeling stronger. Yes, I was stressed, but no longer anxious all the time. Leaving the house was done without thinking about what would or could happen. I was better and a little bit stronger.

That is why the shower was pretty cold when I broke in tears last night. Why? See, when my lack of sleep reaches a certain point, I stop eating. My stomach won’t let me get any food because it is too tired to work! Lazy ass. So, I started to feel queasy. Nausea is a symptom I have associated with anxiety a long time ago. What is a simple reflex of your body when faced with danger, or most of the time for the rest of the world just a call from your body telling you you haven’t done the right thing for it is a red light in my head triggering the Panic Team. For me, symptoms are scary, even the slightest one frightens me to death and I start going all panicky and irrational. So, when I realized I wouldn’t be able to eat, I lost it. I wondered what was happening to me, how I would manage to take my medicine on an empty stomach, if I was gonna be sick, all possible crazy scenarios you can think of when scared witless. I have a history of anorexia so every meal I miss is not okay, and any stress just eats away the little pounds I have managed to painfully gain through many big meals.

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Writing this, thirteen hours later, it dawns on me how silly it all sounds. But this silliness is my reality. So I sat on the floor for two hours and cried, wondering what to do, thinking I was the stupidest, weakest, and that I did not deserve all the things I had. It took my mom hours to take me to bed with my meds, and in the process, I ruined my lovely glasses, which triggered another pool of tears. I don’t remember much else except that I was glad I was not alone, even if at the time, I was angry at myself and at my mother, hence feeling like the loneliest person on Earth.

This is my first setback. The pill is hard to swallow. I recall wondering why I was bothering making any efforts if the slightest thing could be bring back down the hole again so easily. I still wonder, at this very moment.

Time is a funny thing, because I finished Loving the Life Less Lived yesterday morning and the author explained that every panic attack, every setback, every visit to the darkness made her stronger, even if it did not feel like it at the time. I wonder if this will make me stronger. I wonder if this won’t take me back to the start. I wonder if I have the energy to hope again, to try again, to keep learning about myself and how to cope.

I am not giving up. That’s not what a Donna does (this sounds so confident! I’m going with a fake it till you make it here!) I was thrown on the floor more than once and always came back. I am a weed, I don’t go away. I will keep wondering, I will try to be gentle with myself, I will try again.

I wish I had learned a lesson, I wish I could say “I now understand myself better”, but I don’t. Maybe someday it will make sense. Until then I’ll keep doing my best, one step at a time.

This is not a pity-me post, this is life with a general anxiety disorder and what it involves. It’s like those shows showing you real cops catching real bad guys. Anxiety is sadly common, and while our experience can be very similar, I do believe everyone has a different journey and triggers, so I want to share mine and hope it informs or helps someone else to know they’re not the craziest.

Now I’m going to jump into my favorite PJs, wrap myself in my fluffy pink blanket, and grab Furiously Happy. I will only get up to get my tea and snacks and I’m going to indulge in comfort food.

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If you read this, thank you. You don’t have to comment or be nice. I just want you all to take care of yourself and enjoy the good days.

Donna is taking a day off, she’ll be all yours tomorrow! 😊

69 thoughts on “Blog Therapy n°1: First Setback (mental health post)

    1. Thanks so much! I’m trying the “gentle and nice to yourself thing” and staying away from negativity 🙂 I felt I needed to share to get some distance with the incident and see it in a different light. It stopped weighing on my shoulder the minute I pressed Publish so I’m thankful for the blog, and your support! xx

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  1. Fake it till you make it is basically my life motto. I am sorry to hear you had a setback and I know you said that we don’t have to comment or say nice things, but I want to say nice things. You are stronger than you think and you’ve come such a long way already. Setbacks are normal, they happen to the best of us. Always take it one step at a time and if blog therapy helps, keep it coming 😉 we love you, Donna!

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    1. Thanks so much for the support and nice words, they just lifted my spirit you have no idea 🙂 It’s so reassuring to know there’s a place you can unload your burden and have some wonderful people being so nice to you. Blog therapy seems to be working because I felt better just clicking on the Publish button and I don’t know, I feel like talking more about my struggles and victories to keep a trace of them and just fight that picture of “everything is always right and our lives are beautiful” that you see a lot on the Internet. The ugly parts of life needs some space around here too. I’m rambling again, haha! This setback feels a little lighter thanks to you ❤ Lots of love! xxx

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      1. You are definitely right, the world isn’t always sunshine and rainbows and that’s okay! I am very happy to hear that blog therapy works for you and I am sure that it will also help others who stumble upon it and find courage in knowing they aren’t alone either. I am here for you if you ever need me! ❤

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  2. It’s not silly at all but I do believe that lack of sleep (and always those hormons too) can wreck havoc in your mind! Don’t let this pull you down, tomorrow’s another day, you’ll sleep okay, you’ll eat and you’ll have a good day again, and the next one too. You’re saying it yourself, you were doing good, you should look at that and know that you can make plans, you will get there, have faith in yourself! OK confession time: I once cried in front of my boss because he wanted to send me somewhere (to the Court to copy some exhibits). Let’s just say that I didn’t go, he even apologised and he’s never asked me again :-). You are not alone ;-).

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    1. Thanks Inge for the support ❤ I really needed to write it all down to get some hindsight and to help put it behind me. I do know now that sharing this with this blog therapy posts helps a lot and I intend to sharing more, happy or bad things, to keep on walking the bumpy road I'm on 🙂 I don't have the words to express how good it feels to have people around who understand 🙂 thanks a lot xx

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  3. I really applaud you for writing this- it’s so good to just let it out- and I know this post is for you, so don’t feel like you have to read this or anything (my only credentials are my experiences). I think one of the worst things about mental illness is the fear of not making process, of not being better already, of ending up right back where you started. The important thing is to not beat yourself up over it- cos setbacks are *normal*. I am a firm believer that no matter how many setbacks you have it *does* get better. And there is proof- in big and small things- cos you still kicked your anxiety’s ass by going into town to get your eyebrows done and treating yourself to lingerie- so go you!! Enjoy your day off- we’re all here for you!!

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    1. Thank you my favorite banana ❤ I really wrote this selfishly to try and make sense of things and then realized it might be useful to someone or just trigger a conversation or whatever. I don't regret or feel weird about sharing because this is part of who I am and I felt stronger just by being able to say all of this, to talk about it without any barriers.
      You are so right about the "not making progress" fear. I admit I am impatient so I want my efforts to be rewarded quickly, I want results to be visible fast, especially because I fought agoraphobia once and got a wonderful two years living "normally" and I am clinging to the idea it will happen again. I still haven't accepted the fact my anxiety is here for good now and I can succeed in getting a better life and do more but I probably won't get back to those blissful days.
      There was something special about this setback as it was the first real one I had since I started making real progress but I can tell you I did not let it bring me down, I went out the next day.. okay it was yesterday xD and I am surprised at the fact it does not have such a big impact on what I have achieved so far. I still feel a bit weirder, but I don't feel I've taken too many steps back. This is a real relief.
      Thank you so much for the support, it means a lot to me to know there are people who don't judge, who actually read my poor ramblings (hugs for that <3) and who still want to hear all about the awesome Donna I am :p ❤ Thanks so much!!

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      1. You’re welcome ❤ I think that’s a really great things to do- that’s what blogs are so great for- it’s the perfect place to come and just get all the feelings out. And like you said, it’s also a great way to trigger a convo too- it works better than a diary cos people can talk back and it can be really constructive! That’s so great- and I’ve said this before on here, but I really respect and admire that you can do that- it’s so incredibly brave! Honestly, being open about these things is something I really struggle with and I’m so impressed that you’re able to do it for all of us that can’t!!

        Yes, it’s really easy to just be like that. But that’s so great that you didn’t let it get you down for long and that you got back out there!!! And it’s really good that you haven’t let it impact you- I kind of think of these things as “hiccups” and a “bump in the road” rather than setbacks, cos, you know, you’re still travelling in the right direction and all that (don’t know if that makes sense).

        You’re so welcome and I’m always here if you want to chat! *hugs* haha absolutely!! You’re welcome!!!

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  4. Oh, Donna… thank you for being so brave and sharing this… I have a lump in my throat because I just want to give you a hug and bitch about anxieties with you.

    Unlike you, I think I am completely in denial that I could have anxiety. I don’t research it much, I’m not thinking of going to the doc, I’m just being mean to myself and telling myself to just get over it but blimey, my head and thoughts and fears are exhausting. Heh. It’s like I;m thinking to myself that if I admit the problem, then that me will be someone I don’t want to be? I don’t know if I’m making sense but…
    One thing I can take away from your post is that first, I’m being stupid! Two- even with anxiety and whatever any other issues, I could still be who I am because you are a living example of wonderful and smart and witty and strong.

    I wish you had a good day off! I hope you managed to be happy and content. It’s really good sometimes to disconnect from all the tech and social media and just be with yourself and put yourself first. I hope you feel stronger because that’s what you are- you are strong! You’re here and no matter what life throws on your way, you will overcome it as you have done this far! Every time I feel like I can’t take it anymore, I think back on all the crap that I’ve overcome already and then the stubbornness hits in- I’m like: “Liis, you’ve been though x-y-z, so this right here? Piece of cake!” Yes, I fall apart and hit rock bottom, and feel like shit to deal, but the greatest feeling is when you emerge from these ‘muddy waters’… that you do get to emerge from these situations. Even if we fake it, it’s still a step towards some kind of achievement.

    All the love ❤

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    1. Aw ❤ It felt foolish and selfish to share this but I really felt I needed to get it all out to find the necessary hindsight to not let this setback have too much impact on me. I'm taking all the hugs I can get and squeezing you lots ❤
      You are absolutely making sense. It took me two years to admit I was suffering from mental illnesses and seek help. People who are hard on themselves don't like to allow themselves to be sick, to not be in good shape and to be gentle with their own mind and body. I remember thinking that admitting I had a general anxiety disorder would define me, would change the way I saw myself and others saw me, but in the end it was very liberating to allow myself to say "this is still me, this is a part of who I am and I am going to learn how to cope with it instead of fighting it" because fighting it takes so much energy and it can end badly. I promise you that accepting the problem will just make you see a different part of you, but it will still be you, that adorable, lovely, totally great at hugs, wonderful, creative and funny person I got to know over the months.
      I am relieved this post has helped you even just a little bit 🙂
      My day off was good, I took care of myself with makeup and reading and a couple of Suits reruns, I even got out for an appointment, which means that setback won't leave a big scar on my progress…I think 🙂 My brain is made so that I remember the bad more than the good, like many people, but I'm clinging to all the things I've gone through and hoping. I still don't feel strong at all, but I'll get there eventually. Especially with such an amazing support like yours. We'll see what comes next! Let's fight and make it ❤ Thanks so much for everything ❤

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      1. ☺ thanks for the great reply. The post and your comments certainly help.
        Suits? man, i love Suits… I havent watched the latest season but what a great show! 😊
        right on- we shall keep ploughing on! 💝 ❤

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  5. Know that you are not alone. I have an anxiety disorder called Misophonia with an ED and PTSD on top of that. Anxiety can be very crippling and it makes it hard to just get through the day or the present moment. Hang in there xx

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    1. Thanks so much. There’s something liberating in letting it all out and it worked enough for me to not be scarred by this setback. I am sorry to hear you are familiar with the sufferings of mental illnesses, too. I wish you the best and hope you have more quiet and good days than bad ones. xx

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  6. I don’t have anxiety (though with the current storm in the UK – Doris, ggrr silly name I am dreading the loud bang that means one of the fences, greenhouse or the neighbours massive and swaying tree has uprooted) but I have had depression (lots of the dark poetry is real) and as such I agree with you on the whole ‘looking back it’s silly’ bit of the post however…..that applies to lots of things, I could say what made me be really unhappy and then a few hours later think it was really stupid, at times the catalyst might be something major that happens or just something trivial and irrelevant of no importance and later you think WTF. But…..the one thing I have realised is that whether or not it’s a silly thing or looking back if you yourself think it’s silly that thing that caused the slip up is the most important thing in the world to the person and as such nothing that triggers a slip is silly!

    It is very hard to understand yourself, some days I am happy and fine and at others not so much or even downright unhappy and often I don’t know why or what has caused the change from day to day but as you say it’s all about getting back up each time you fall down or slip up. 🙂

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    1. Doris is a terrible name for a storm. I hope she did not do too much damage!
      Understanding yourself takes a lifetime I guess. It comes with all the experiences, good and bad, and the lesson is often hard learned. Getting back up on our feet is what we need to keep in mind, no matter how many times our silly triggers try to make us forget that part. Thanks for sharing your experience, Marshie, I appreciate that 🙂 xx

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      1. Luckily the storm didn’t do much damage, thank god, just made everything more rickety.😂

        True, understanding does take a lifetime and possibly even longer, some people never understand.

        I think that’s the thing though, there not silly triggers, it’s OK if you call them that yourself looking back but it’s when other people refer to them as that, it’s wrong, not everything has to be massive or have life changing consequences. I guess if I used an example of, a book was guaranteed to be delivered today, you’d finished your current book yesterday and are going to start the new book straight after its been delivered, it’s the latest from your favourite series/author and then it doesn’t arrive with the post, to anyone else it would be insignificant and they’d laugh about it but to you it could make you really fed up and unhappy for the rest of the day, yes, it’s only something silly and trivial but to you in that moment it’s the most important thing in the world as it’s the reason you’re now feeling miserable, obviously there could also be underlying issues anyway (crap day at work, etc) but that one thing is the catalyst that tips you over the edge on that day.

        Looking back its cool to see things as being silly triggers though, I’ve done it enough and then questioned WTF was I so miserable over something so silly.😂

        Yeah, getting back up is what really counts.😀

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  7. Well, I hope it’s OK to comment and be nice anyway! I’m sorry you’ve had a setback but glad that you’re fighting it with talking/writing and pampering yourself a little. I have nothing useful to say, but am sending you my best wishes – I hope the medication and therapy allow you to feel better at least most of the time. 🙂

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    1. It’s always okay to comment and be nice 🙂 And don’t think your words weren’t useful, it feels really good to see such support, even with a few words, it can change the way we deem a day. I’m getting back on my feet, one step at a time!

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      1. Good to hear that,btw Love furiously Happy , this book along with Hyperbole and half are my go to book for when I m feeling I want some smile in my life

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          1. If U want you can go to Allie Brosh’s blog which is what the book is about , the blog is also named Hyperbole and half.Google it , in fact I think all the material of the book are on the blog so I can just check that out and if you like it U can buy her new book in September 2017

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  8. I love Furiously Happy it is my go to anxiety book I hope you enjoy it. Please message me if you ever need a pick me up. As a mom of three I take them shopping with me as a diversion from my anxiety disorder, if they are not with me I must have headphones on. I will not usually have anything playing with them on, but they have to be on my head as a self defense mechanism. I understand whole heartedly your day 😦 You do not need to ramble alone… I am here to ramble to!! Fake it until you make it is my motto. One day I called my hubby because I went to the bookstore (my favorite shop) without headphones on, I was so excited. An hour later I had a panic attack… that crap sneaks right up on you. You think “I’ve got this!!” then it’s like “Oh hell no you don’t” . Just remember you are not alone! It’s great you have a good support system at home, and you also have one online if you need it 😀 Keep your chin up!!

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    1. It’s also my to-go book when anxiety is trying to kick my ass 🙂 There’s so much to find in the book to feel a little better, it’s a real gem for anyone suffering with mental illness.
      Thanks a lot, likewise, I’m always here if needed. Talking can make a big difference. I’m happy this setback taught me blogging therapy was good too 🙂
      I like your diversion strategies 🙂 With my agoraphobia, I wouldn’t dare go shopping but it’s a nice one and with kids it turns into a nice thing to do.
      You can always ramble here or on your blog and you’ll find me reading 🙂 Those nasty little triggers sometimes creep on you and turn something good into a bad moment.
      Thanks a lot for your support ❤ A mean little voice always tells me I'm alone in this but here's the proof it's untrue and I'm going to shove it up her ass! 🙂 I'm taking one step at a time, and with the chin up high! ❤

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  9. Little set backs are the worst, you sit there feeling shit from the setback and then you feel shit because you feel so silly and its this horrible vicious circle. Last night I needed to sleep early so of course I was up at 3 am with unexpected anxiety. I hate having awful mental health. Thank you for posting this, I think people need to be so much more open to what every day with mental illnesses is like (of course only if they feel comfortable). Hope you feel better tomorrow!

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    1. You described perfectly, they’re a real pain…
      I admit at first this post was absolutely selfish, I just needed to get the incident out of my system, but then I hesitated before publishing because I did not want it to feel like a “boo I’m complaining about my poor life” but then I realized even if we sometimes talk about anxiety or depression, we don’t actually discuss what tangible things it puts you through so I thought maybe in addition to give me hindsight on what had happened, it could help others talk or visualize what life with mental health looked like. At first I felt weak about all of this, but now I see I gained a bit of strength by telling others, I still need a bit of help believing there is no shame in what we have to live with, though 🙂
      I hate nightly anxiety, you have much less power over it and tools to help with it. I share an apartment with my mom so I can’t just get up and keep busy to try and relieve the feeling.

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  10. Thank you for writing so honestly about your experiences with anxiety. I’ve got anxiety too and I get how difficult it can be to put yourself out there like that. From the sounds of it, you have done amazingly so far, and I hope that one bad day didn’t get you too off-track. If you ever need to chat, I’d be happy to do so 🙂

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    1. Thank you for reading it 🙂 I now feel this post was a step forward and I am happy I went through with it. We definitely talk a bit more about mental illness but scarcely about what it is to live with it so sharing my experience might help, I don’t know. It did help me 🙂 Thanks a lot for your support and know that I’m also here if you ever need, anxiety warriors need to stick together!

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  11. I’m so sorry you had a breakdown Donna, it sounds like a horrible thing to go through and I really do hope you feel better soon. Take your time getting better and all but curling up in your PJ’s with comfort food and a good book sounds like a decent start, and a perfect evening in my mind as well. 🙂
    Take care of yourself as well. 🙂 ❤

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    1. Thanks so much Beth ❤ Things were quite ugly that evening but I feel better now. My body is still recovering a little but my emotions are under control again and I can function. I am slowly learning about what to do to feel better after a bad moment, so I keep a lot of things at hand in case it happens and so far, it's been working. You have no idea how blogging is a savior 🙂 Thanks for your support ❤

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  12. I love seeing all the comments on this post! I have severe anxiety myself, so I totally understand, and I’m so so sorry you have to deal with this too. I think it’s a constant roller coaster. You’ll be doing great, and then something will trigger you to go downhill again. You’ll get on top of things again before you know it. Hang in there!

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    1. I am amazed at the number of people ready to support and understand in this community 🙂 It sure helps going through the bad days knowing someone out there is ready to listen and just be there, even with a simple like.
      I’m sorry to hear you are way too familiar with anxiety, too. It definitely feels like a rollercoaster! Thankfully a few tricks can help avoid the drowning. Thanks so much for chiming in and your support 🙂

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  13. You are so brave for posting this, Donna 💕
    I think it’s also so important that you’re so honest, I’m sure there are loads of bloggers who want to talk about their mental health but they don’t have the guts and I’m sure this post has inspired them loads!

    I’m sorry you had a setback. I know how hard it can be especially when you think you’re making progress. I’ve had it too, I’ve had a few good days and the next day I would just wake up feeling super depressed again. But I know that it gets better, with every day it gets better 💕

    I hope you are feeling better after you’re well deserved me time and you’re welcome to message me if you’d like to talk 💕

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    1. I feel more in control and calm because of this post but definitely not strong 🙂 ❤
      I was in bed thinking how we slowly start talking about mental health and I realized no one ever mentions what it really looks like, or at least I don't recall reading this kind of posts. I thought it would be therapeutic for me to let it all out and for others to better understand or know they weren't alone, so I made the jump, and I am really happy I did because it helped me get over it faster than I would if I had spent the next days pondering over it over and over and over again.
      I hold on to the thought that "everything passes", even bad moments, and I'll keep doing it probably for the rest of my life, but I am starting to accept I can't change it, anxiety is a part of me and I just have to learn how to cope with it to live the best way possible 🙂
      Those bad moments are tough but we can't escape them, don't hesitate to let me know if you ever need to chat 🙂 ❤ Thank you so much for the love and support!

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  14. I am soooo sorry that you had a breakdown. All setbacks are hard, just have faith in yourself, I’m sure you can do it! ❤ I really hope that you are feeling better now. Your health is the most important part, so take all the time you need, relax and take care of yourself! ❤

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    1. Thank you so mcuh ❤ I feel a lot better and talking about it, even just through a blog post because my doctors aren't available, was a very helpful step. I intend on taking good care of myself and immerse my head in books to keep going 🙂 Thank you so much for the support!!

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  15. Awww don’t feel silly/bad in any way for having to go through this! *sends a box full of hugs, chocolate and more hugs* I only have a ‘supermild/light’ form of anxiety myself and I can’t even imagine what it is like to go through the real thing… Sometimes you’re just allowed an off-day! I hope you will feel better soon and say hi to the raccoon for me. 😉 ❤ ❤ ❤

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    1. I love your comfort box!! Thank you ❤❤❤❤❤ The raccoon (mine is called Smile :p) says hi too!! I’m glad talking about it on the blog helped me take away the bad energy and feelings those experiences leave you with.

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  16. So sorry to hear bout your setback and well done for thinking and being brave enough to share it, by doing so you’re developing for yourself an incredible resource that is always here and will attract just the kind of words to help soothe you through it and I’m sure that by doing so, you are also helping others to feel less alone with similar experiences.

    A little thing that helps me daily and that I use with my teens are Kyle Gray’s beautiful Angel Cards, we all pick one for the day and it kind of helps orient the thoughts and reminds us of gratitude, which is one of the best practices I know to get out of the cycle of negative thoughts. Next to books, they always are a source of delight.

    Bonne Courage. 🙂

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    1. Thanks so much for your support 🙂 I felt quite shy before posting this but I knew I wanted to do it, both for me and for others, as we never really discuss what it’s like to live with such problems on a daily basis.
      Thank you for the link, I’ll go get a look 🙂 Merci!!

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  17. Thank you for sharing something so personal, Donna. I don’t really know what to say, except that I appreciate your frankness and I hope you have a good year ahead of you despite some challenges. Please indulge in comfort foods and habits as much as you can and take care of yourself as much as you can. 🙂 ❤

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    1. Thank you for taking the time to give a little comment. It makes it easier to share when I see the support I was not expecting. I think sharing my personal experiences will help me and I can only hope it helps others because we are still left feeling so ashamed of our illnesses and what it makes us do. I’ll keep my head up all year and take good care 🙂 thanks a lot ❤

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  18. I’d like to give you a standing applause for taking the time to share your experience with us. Blogging (or just simply writing) everything you felt and what you thought about it all is a major step in the right direction. I am sorry that you had to go through a breakdown. I really hope that you’ll continue to find the strength in you to fight through these tough times and jump back on board and navigate your ship (life) back towards absolute happiness and peace.

    – Lashaan

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    1. Aw, that is so sweet. I do feel blogging about my illnesses and struggles helps in keeping my head up and the goals at hand. Thank you so much for your support, life gets easier when you try (and sometimes succeed!) to take small steps, so I’m putting all my strength in that goal and I’m sure I’ll be okay 🙂 xxx

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  19. Setbacks happen. I mean, they suck (I should know–I’m an expert!) but they don’t mean your previous efforts did nothing. On the contrary, I think you’ll find you still have all that wisdom and the extra skills, and you’ll be able to keep moving forward. After a while, you may have relapses, but you can recover faster, or they aren’t as overwhelming. Or maybe you’ll be luckier than me and stop having them entirely! Anyway, I just want to cheer you on. I love your determination to keep going. You can do this.

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    1. They really suck but I have come to terms with the fact they come with the progress we make. Thank you very much for this comment, it really helps. I have been slowly feeling symptoms of relapsing since I took a bit step, it is bringing back anxiety slowly and I’m fighting not to let it overwhelm me and my plans, so I need all the support I can 🙂 If you ever need to chat, I’m right here!

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